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And most of that can be contributed to a mild depression that was brought on by apathy and general low self worth and and crushing sense of loneliness that despite a rich bevy of friends and family; could not squash.

I met someone, and have been spending a lot of free time with him.

Chance of fate to cross paths but the strong sense of connection, the insane amount of chemistry, and the general healthiness I feel between us is amazing.

I'm starting to feel the small trickles of creativity return, the artist vitality is starting to bubble below the surface, something I've not felt in a few years.

I've taken pictures and would get a taste but it was ever fleeting. Quickly as it came it would go back... Now I've got ideas for faces to re-create and try, I've got desires to go places camera in tow to fill my memory card and spend weeks editing pics, I feel the itch for a pencil in my hand too, though that one is faint.

I want to create again, but I'm trying not to rush back, frothing and burning out again, I worry about it, especially since I KNOW I have some very stressful issues coming up soon and my art is directly related to my mental stability and health. I do know that Daniel is giving me a sense of calm, peace, and general ok-ness with the world. Security of feeling that now I'm not dangling on the precipice of something with nothing behind me.

Though my friends, my best friend who've always been there were always and ARE always behind me, I hate burdening them with my problems and hate depending on them to catch me, it's a weird thought process but it's the one I have...

But something in me ... like hims there, and feels he'd get it, and he'd not judge me for needing him.
  • Mood: Joy
  • Watching: Hansel and Gretel: Witch Hunters
  • Eating: Mentos gum
  • Drinking: Coke

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Jennifer "Joker"
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Operating System: Windows 8
Camera: Nikon D90 with 55-200 mm Nikkor and 18-55mm Nikon lenses
Drawing: Bamboo Tablet and Adobe Photoshop CS6
Face: BHCosmetics (mostly)

I'm 31, divorced and a fan of a many a things. (SPN, DW, WH13, MH, EAH, MLP, IDK MY BFF JILL)
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:iconkayleytatts:
kayleytatts Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2013  Professional Artist
Cheers for the watch Joker! :) 
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RxJoker Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
^_~ I gotta you're stuff is good I've just been lazy.
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Kamau-Studios Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday :D
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RxJoker Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you!
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Kamau-Studios Featured By Owner May 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome :D
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OnceUponAGazSpaz Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!
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RxJoker Featured By Owner May 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
THANK YOU!
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kineticnovels Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2013  Professional General Artist
Playing profile page tag finding each other's pages all over the webernets, Joker? Truly, truly, truly outrageous!
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RxJoker Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
it happens... I had intended to follow you before but didn't wanna seem like the creepy stalker type following my best friends best friends lol so I waited till I had at least met you har
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kineticnovels Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2013  Professional General Artist
Nahhh not creepy! I hear networking with your networks' networks is all the rage with kids these days~
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